“You just stay here in this one corner of the Forest waiting for others to come to you. Why don’t you go to them sometimes.”– A. A. Milne, The House at Pooh Corner
I feel this quote.
In the past, I’ve been a solitary soul sitting alone waiting for the people I care about to come to me. And most of the time they do, because they’re good people.
I wish I knew what it was that blocked me from reaching out. It’s likely something I learned early on, some inherited belief that I was a bother. But that thought doesn’t feel good, so I know it doesn’t come from my Self. And I know it can be unlearned.
So I’m making more of an effort to reach out, to participate more, as Stephen Chbosky would say. The challenge for me is finding balance. I love being around my friends and vibing with people, but I also know I need solitude to recharge so I can do it all over again.
Today, Five Minutes in the Morning suggests listing all the people you can go to when you need to cry and when you want to celebrate.
I initially resisted this idea, because I knew my list would be small. However, even if my list is small I know that the love therein isn’t.
Here’s what I wrote:
I came up with a small list and immediately wanted to rank them – oh, hello ego! Is it sad that my list is so small? To whom is it sad? Who is the i that is sad?
I’m still living in that veil of separation, thinking I don’t need or don’t deserve people to be important to me. Why does it seem true that I don’t deserve people to be important to me? Because I’ve forgotten my Divinity with this prompt.
I’m often in my own corner. I recharge there.
I’m trying to get out more.
Who is important to you, dear reader? Reach out to them today and tell them. I know they’ll appreciate it.