what do you desire?

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“Far away in the sunshine are my highest aspirations. I cannot reach them: but I can look up, and see their beauty; believe in them, and try to follow where they lead.”

Louisa May Alcott

Today, Five Minutes in the Morning encourages us to list our hopes and dreams.

Set your timer for five minutes, divide your desires into work-related desires and emotional desires. If the timer goes and you’re not done, keep going! And don’t limit yourself – this is pie-in-the-sky, daydream, fantasy country! Realism need not apply.

Much like listing our fears, when we put our desires down on paper we have a chance to see them made tangible, maybe for the first time since they’ve been brewing in our brains.

Here’s what I wrote:

I don’t want to work for anyone. I don’t know how to add value on my own. I want to create my own schedule. I want my mornings. I don’t want to go anywhere to work unless I choose to go there. I want autonomy. I want to go months or weeks without seeing anyone & when I do see people I want it to be my choice. Right now I’m feeling thoughts of separation, but that’s because this January New Moon energy is pushing me to where I belong. I don’t know if I want to travel anywhere, but I know I don’t want to stay here. I don’t want to care about what society tells us to care about. I want to live alone, somewhere. I want to be self-sufficient. I want to go back & complete the missing steps in my development. I want my anxiety to ease up & disappear. I want to see no separation when I look @ people – but I only want to look @ people when I want to.

I plan to revisit this prompt in the near future, because damn if this ain’t boring and dour. I was all disgruntled with starting a new job, and while what I wrote isn’t exactly wrong, it’s not as vivid as it could be. It could focus more on positive things, and be a looooot more specific. For instance, what does self-sufficiency mean for me?

What about your desires, dear readers? How did it feel to get them down on paper? Let me know in the comments below!

Also, stay away from supernatural goats.

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